Say Hi There To My Bad Body Double

Hello friend.

How are things going with you? Life continues much as it always has here in rural Michigan. I procrastinate more than I should and wind up unmotivated. Somehow events persist around me.

"This is no good," I tell myself. I've got a straight shot of work until after Christmas with no vacation time planned. I can't have burnt out this fast after my vacation in July. It seems to have happened, though. I need to find a way to get what I need done without all of the pressure I seem to put on myself.

For about a week, I'm great. I vacuum the rooms, do the dishes, get laundry done, stay on top of clutter. Then, something hits. I feel under the weather; I work a weird shift; someone wants to get together to talk at the last minute.

This disruption is no one's fault but my own. I still feel slightly powerless by it, though.

Something to work through. I have full control over all of this. It's my life. I decide how to react to all of it. It's up to me to take control.

Have a great afternoon. I hope this finds you well.

Time Goes Quicker Between the Two of Us

Hello friend.

Welcome to Fall. It's really almost here, I'm so very excited.

Life has been busy for me; I've been trying to stay busy to keep myself from obsessing about my losses. That's how I cope. Take on a new project, learn a new skill. It helps me focus on the things that bring me joy and let go of the things that tie me down.

My recent addiction is vlogging. I've been vlogging for almost a month now - I do a weekly update over on youtube that you can find here. Yes, I know. I plugged it last blog. Don't mind me as I drive the point home, it's really fun to do! Every week I scramble to get it ready on Saturday nights - sometimes after work. Every week, it makes me so happy to see that piece of me out there to be witnessed.

I watched a movie a few weeks ago where a wife talked about her marriage. She said about it (approximately) "you're saying yes. Yes, I will witness your life. I will notice. I will care."

That got me thinking. I don't plan on being with someone in that way. So, what will my legacy be? Who will be my witness? I witness hundreds of people online every day. After seeing my good friend Lindsay do her daily vlog for almost a year, I got the bug. It hit me; the world could be my witness. Or, the internet could. The number of views I get doesn't matter to me. The simple fact that a piece of me is out there is what matters.

I plan on keeping this blog up as well. We'll see how well that goes - it always seems like a more personal piece of me on here.

Again, we'll see. Thank you, friend.