everybody's playing the game

Want a slice of pie? This will be the food show, in which I introduce all of the great eats I've been making for the past weekish!


We'll start off with my Shepherd's Pie!


It does have real sheep-related meat in it - yearling, specifically. Yearling, carrots, onions, celery, and a few other things in the bottom layer, mashed potatoes on top - delicious eats! It was a great, fulfilling meal - a lot of leftovers in the fridge after this one.

How about some pie? Shell first:



Add the custard:


and the Meringue:


And bake!


Want a slice?



Now for some pizza and breadsticks! I made the pizza sauce myself - don't ask for the recipe, it's a secret... maybe.


Anywho, pizza!


I didn't get a picture of the cooked pizza, but it was as tasty as it looks (or, conversely so if it doesn't look tasty to you)! I did get a picture of the breadsticks, though!


Mmm... extra sauce for dipping...



So, that's food! I think that the next update I'll do will be about the room renovation - I think I have enough pics to make it through all right! I think that's about it for now. Sleep well, my friend.

i can even pat myself on the back when necessary

Give yourself time, Arnold. It gets better... But, Arnold, it never goes away. You can work longer hours, adopt a son, fight with me, whatever... it'll still be there. But that's all right, it becomes a part of you, like learning to wear a ring or a pair of eyeglasses. You get used to it. And that's good. It's good, because it makes sure you don't forget. You don't want to forget him, do you?

I don't know what to say tonight. A lot of things on my mind. Too many people that I'd forgotten and shouldn't have. I'm feeling the need to write... and also the need to push it away, to forget. Forgetting will be a cheap imitation of what life could be like: truly myself, pains and pleasure - everything.

And so I must write. That is all there is to it. So simple. So complex. Easily difficult and difficultly easy. Strange how different those are... and so similar.

Maybe I just need to get my ass to bed.

Sleep well, my friend.

it's hot and it's monotonous

Fascinating what life throws at you. Or doesn't. Either way, it's been a fun few weeks - I've got a lot of artistic and writing ideas swirling around in my brain... boil, boil, toil and trouble - fire burn and cauldron bubble. Mwahaha.

Anywho!

I have food related pics and and room related pics - wanted to drop a line to say that I'm still here.

Take care and sleep well.

don't face the headlights of the oncoming cars alone

Well, hello there. In the past few days, I've made a few interesting concoctions... I did not photo journal them because I think that you might have been disgusted. First off, I made heart of beef... sliced it into sections and sizzled it on the stove top like one would a steak. It was interesting... intense flavor, thick meat. Today, I used leftover heart in a sandwich similar to the one I posted earlier - heart added a great flavor and heaviness to the sandwich.

I need to get my butt in gear. I needs a job. And, I need to do taxes. And get back into college. Sounds like an hour long task, eh?

A lot on my mind tonight...

Sleep well

and i'm almost there

Sorry, I forgot to take the final shot of the finished product. The oven shot will have to do! I made pizza tonight if you couldn't tell. It was superbly delicious.

I started with some homemade pizza dough:


Roll it out:


Perforate!


Cover in sauce!


Toppings anyone?!?!


And into the oven!



All together, delicious meal. Add a Dr. Pepper, and the night was amazing. A lot is on my mind again. I'm concerned that I haven't treated a friend of mine all that well. I have a tendency to assume that everything is ok when, apparently, things aren't. In honesty, it would probably be self-centeredness. I think things are ok in a relationship, and so I figure that the other person isn't as happy. Maybe even seen as using the other person? I don't know.

I can see the moon as she traverses the sky outside my dining room window... she always gives me hope and inspiration. Something clean and new ever filling itself and emptying itself; rebirth coming every 28 days. Something to strive for, I guess. Re-invention. Taking nothing for granted every cycle. Hope of a new day when I've had all I can take. The promise of more when I feel empty.

I hope I can help fill your emptiness, my friend.

Sleep well.

nobody needs to know

Ah, life is interesting - as always! Snow has been covering the little town that I live in. They tell me that I'll be getting a nice covering of ice as well - won't that be fun! Still remodeling the room - working on painting the closet now. A lot of crevices - it's time consuming work. Also a bit tiring on the arms. It'll all be worth it in the end! The painting should be done tonightish, then we start the mass cleaning of the rest of the room. Then, I'll start bringing stuff back in, reorganizing, and throwing out other things that need removing.

It has been an interesting week. Overcoming obstacles, being happy at successes, trying hard to work through failures and times where I didn't come up to scratch... it has been a fulfilling week. I find myself grateful for my friends these days. I feel so blessed to know so many good people. I hope to enrich their lives as they enrich mine.

There are so many lonely people out there and I have been graced with this assortment of people that care about me as I care about them. That help me as I help them. Improve my life while I improve theirs.


There is more to say, but not enough time to say it in. For now, sleep well, my friend.

i open myself one stitch at a time

This, my friends, is the creation of the day. In my family, we call it Chess Cake. A simple concoction made from yellow cake mix, eggs, butter, and powdered sugar, it (I'm sure you can see) yealds delicious results.

First, there's a mixture of egg and yellow cake mix:



Smash that into a 9X13" pan




mix together the liquidy goodness (I will not divulge the secret - mwahaha), and add it on top




Bake it for 50 minutes at 325, and you get the end result!





That might be the last of my cooking for a few days - time to take a bit of a break. Mom and I made the chess cake for our family Valentine's Day dinner. So many things inhabit the corners of my mind tonight. I am unsure of where to begin, or if I should even tell what is on my mind tonight. A great amount of thought remains unformed in my mind, and I do not wish to bring something forth undeveloped. I'm still working on my room - the first coat of paint is on. I'm hoping to finish up the main room tomorrow. There will be a special blog update when it's all finished! I've been documenting the entire process.

I'll leave my thoughts to stew a bit longer - take care, my friend.

Sleep well.